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  • Aug. 10th, 2009 at 11:49 PM

Finally i can have some peace in my room! My bro is off to aunt's house to be a bookworm. Now my whole table is in a mess of notes, and his gigantic earphones! Gotta clear it up in a while rah! It's the exams time for poly again.. Was just on the phone with val saying how fast that we're in year 2 now! She wanna study greek and philosophy!  how awesome right i bet she's my first friend who can teach me greekish language ahhah.

Singapore Idol is super hilarious, if hakeem and junkai were through it'll be so much fun man.. Caught a show on Tv just now, 'Flyboys' interesting show. I wanna ride in a fighter plane someday too, i love war movies!! Okies back to reality, i gotta touch some books..

Hardwork

  • Jul. 30th, 2009 at 12:06 AM

".. When you hear a song, and certain chords reach out and grab you.. God is in those chords" - Lewis Warren Jr

I wanna dream tonight

  • Jul. 20th, 2009 at 2:46 AM

Really had a shocking encounter today, I think i'll not forget what happened today ever. It's really God planned, every single thing. He just moves in an amazing and unpredictable way. Truly, in everything by prayer and supplication, God never fails.

Am determine to finish some work this week. Just realised that I haven't been listening to what Mr Wah Peow taught since school started. Actually I did, but i think ANNOVA test, repeated measures tests... are just the most terrible things. Fishing would be more fun :) Okay have been to AE weekend this week so gotta wake up the idea of flunking this subject. And I'm so glad Val's parents came this week and they have a had a diff experience in the house, already  I'm seeing that this is a place which bridges the gap between young and older people!
I wish i'll wake up tmr, with ears that has perfect pitch! Well the ear training practice really helps quite alot. I wonder why our ears work this way man. It's hard to differentiate notes that are played together. Hahaha maybe we're made to listen to one person at the same time. 

I agree with QQ's tweet about having a bed that vibrates like alarm clock. If there really is one, i'll get the one that throws me out of bed literally! My brain is immune to alarm rings really. My eyes are almost slits now, goodnight.




 

Inner Voices

  • Jul. 15th, 2009 at 1:53 AM

It's really a privilege to be in the leaders' meeting tonight! Heard so much what others pastors have said about our church and where our church is heading to for the future. Indeed God is opening so many doors and now is the time to take the next step. Hogc is my first church and i've no idea how other churches run, never did i know that what we do here in church appear abnormal to the people around us. There's just so much and much what God has instore for us in the coming seasons. New people are rising up, and they are really taking ownership of this church. It's time to give and not just receiving anymore.

Although it sounds cliche, but when opportunities come, we gotta really grab it. I don't want to miss any more chances, i have missed too many. How many 18years old can i waste? I like Big picture people, they see things at a widen view and sometimes its not that easy in life. There may be situations that are so discouraging, but its relationships that matter. Don't ever let a situation ruin a r/s. I've seen how my mom and her sister's r/s become so drastic just because of a small situation. It's definitely not worth it.

However impossible it may seem, I see that someday my parents and brother will be save and serve together as a family. It's such a blessed sight. Because i'm not born in a Christian family, all the more i want my family to be save and my next generation of kids are gonna take that baton and say 'we are gonna continue the race'. Patience is really then a virtue. God is not going to give me stone when i pray for bread. There's only one chance on Earth and i wanna make the best out of it.

Matthew 10:42 "Whoever gives a cup of cold water to one of these little ones in the name of a disciple, assuredly I say to you, he shall by no means lose his reward." The phrase cup of cold water just catches my attention. A cup of cold water is a basic act of hospitality but it may seem insignificant. But sometimes the smallest of acts can have impacts far beyond what we think. Most of the time, what God wants from us is the little things isn't it?

Needa go catch some sleep before piano lesson later! Drill the notes into my brain... drill drill drill

Unforgettable

  • Jun. 22nd, 2009 at 3:22 AM

Came back from D.E.O Camp and oh man it's really mind blowing! Got to know new people like Andy,Crystal,Chen San and Jordan!Hahah and Kimberly too I didn't know she's so good at coming up with cheers. Definitely I got to know more about ppl in D5,it's really a good time to just sit down and talk and ask about other's lives. Service with Pst Troy and Dominic brought me to another level of thinking and I just felt stronger in my walk with God.

Really wish Val could be there too and join us!It'll be such a great time! The services with Pst Troy and Dominic were thought provoking, and challenging.I feel that this is a season of giving, giving what is precious. So much so as praying for a breakthrough, if there is no giving of someting precious to you, then there won't be a breakthrough. Just like Jieru said, fear is like a blindfold, it's immobolizing. It's like rehearsing with your band in a circle with acoustic guitars and unamplified vocals. There's no way to hide your flaws and any mistake is bound to be obvious. I can't conceal my fears and failures from God. Shames and guilt I do have, but I believe there is mercy that cleanses all these. I do not want to disappoint people, neither will i push my fears to the back of my head. But i shall do things that are pleasing in God's eyes and not to please men only.I yearn to be more anointed with my playing but first take an act of faith. God is indeed opening up many doors of opportunity right now and I'm glad. I want more of You and less of me

A thousand times I failed, still Your mercy remains
Should I stumble again, I'm caught in Your grace


Quiet Nights

  • Jun. 6th, 2009 at 12:10 AM

Whoa finally term test is oooover! And we're rewarded with 2 weeks of holidays to date projects and portfolios. Boo! Had a great day with Eloo loo and weird people, funny to watch how Annlynn and Eloise quarrel over 'Red' and 'Pink'. Annlynn is just a crazy person, she told us all her "WHATTT?!" experiences. Like flooding her uncle's kitchen because he told them they can do anything but not burn down the house. Lol. Went to Pris's house for bbq and her rabbits are so fat and tempting to cook! Our attempt to microwave the calamari rings failed and her maid had to help us fry it in the end -.-

Finally a time to catch a breather! And better catch up on bible reading plan too man! Gotta go on intensive exercise soon too! Been a long time since my lungs have been put to test. Gosh i just lost to my brother in Winning Eleven and i'm gonna be his maid for a day! Anything but washing his clothes :) There're so many camps going on this June, mostly in Malaysia. Would love to go to langkawi or desaru some day to see the beautiful beaches! Chanced upon this video on Hossan Leong singing about history of singapore, kinda hilarious.





Watched a show on MTV recently too, it's about these different young people having mental disorders in America. And it's quite scary to know that many people suffer mental illness like depression without knowing it and refuse to seek for help. Maybe it's their genetics or social pressure that cause it but nevertheless, it's heartwrenching to see teenagers suffering with these problems. If people around are more supportive, will it be better?

Eyes are getting heavier.. Oh and Deon is in Aussie with the kangaroos now!Hope he doesn't get the swine.. Shall go explore RP tmr before going for Yiling's concert!


Ahhh i laughed at QQ's spoilt phone and tried to revive it by hitting against it the table. Oh great now my phone is dead! I didn't know retribution applys to phone too. So finally now i am left with no choice but to use my htc. Rah i can't group my contacts with it! Oh man i should have just gotten a normal brand phone. So much for trying to be special. Hahah

So nothing extraordinary has happened in life and i'm quite use to the sucky timetable these few weeks. One more week to a huge breather! Need to start on the interviews soon on my cousin. Hahahh i think i need to bribe her with tons of food for using her as my subject in projects. It's so much better working with kids than grown ups because kids are more simple and real.

At some times, we just feel we need to add a pinch of salt to our lives. Salt, to preserve, flavour, thirst, grow and for purity. There're days where you reach home so exhausted and your shoulders are so heavy. Today is that kind of night. Tomorrow will be a better day :) That's what most of us tell ourselves before we sleep ya. Goodnight!

Scatterbrain

  • May. 16th, 2009 at 1:28 AM


This semester has been quite messy, everything is passing so fast. It's already week 4 now for goodness sake. Oh and my brother is back home! Finally there's japanese music, crazy shouts and some noise in the middle of the night. I'm quite use to sitting alone at the back seat of my dad's car for these few years now. Now the space is taken up, it feels quite funny. But now that he's back, the feeling of doing better is even more overwhelming. People are saying show him that you can do better, but i know my limits. Life doesn't just revolves around school does it? I'm quite afraid to take big steps in life right now, even hesitant to think about it.

Counselling lesson today was quite productive :) Ms Eunice has her way of teaching about counselling skills, and putting it into practice. Well being a counsellor sure ain't easy. Listening to people's stories, probing to know more, understand like a friend. It's not a job for the faint hearted. Hahah sometimes we can't even figure our own emotions and have to stop and think what is thie weird feeling.

I was looking at the bookmark Valerie gave me when i first went to Church. Many times I look at it it seemed like a ordinary verse but this time, I felt that it spoke to me.

Psalm 9:9-10
The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed. A refuge in times of trouble. And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, Lord have not forsaken those who seek You



 

Crooked Branches

  • Apr. 27th, 2009 at 12:25 AM

Today's celebration for Pastor Lia's birthday was more than awesome! Hahah the people who acted in the skit were so hilarious! I think the funny and crazy gene is really in our church's dna. People got to hear of stories and stories about how Pastor Lia has done in their lives. Well some people may not have talk to her personally, but nevertheless we know how much she has sown into our lives. The sermons she preach from the pulpit never fails to inspire me, well i guess to most people too. It's definitely not easy to run a youth church. Well for all i know, not many can decide to give up on a great job and choose to be a pastor and believe in youths :)

I did a drawing yesterday hahah drawing flowers. this picture caught my attention when i was looking through the web. Simple simple.



Isaiah 40:6-8
The voice said, "Cry out!"
And he said, "What shall I cry?"

"All flesh is grass,
And all it's loveliness is like the flower of the field.
The grass withers, the flower fades,
Because the breath of the LORD blows upon it;
Surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flower fades,
But the Word our God stands forever."

We have a vulnerable nature, like grass and flowers. There are situations where we can be helpless, like a flickering flame.
But there is an assurance and stability of God's promise to us, contrary to our negative thoughts. I felt this verse speaking to me when i was having a quiet time. Somehow it kinda link to what i drew in the afternoon. Haha funny how.

Anyway, brother is finally coming back in a few weeks time. Oh man i really can't wait to have a basketball match with him! I miss quarreling with him and teasing our mom together. Boo he's not staying for good, but there's still a few months to spend with him :) I shall surprise him! I love my brother and i've never said that in his face before. Hahah maybe i'll do so now :)

Alright school tomorrow, gonna be exciting! Hope to work with crazy jessica in tutorial group, it'll be funny for counselling! Can imagine her giggling away, in the midst of therapy. Lol. Off to do some cards! Been craving for tomyum soup almost everyday. I feel sick. Blooop
 

Close yet far off

  • Apr. 13th, 2009 at 2:47 AM

This Easter has been great! Hahah well Valerie, Jieru and Sharyl Kate were baptised and its really a happy moment :) How cool it would be if my whole family can be baptise together. This Mother's day would be a great chance for mom to come back again then. And it just dawned on me that school is starting next week. Oh gosh, it seems so fast now that i'm left with literally no holidays cos of FO. I hope school is gonna be fun with a couple of new juniors coming in :) Qiyun is almost dried up now busy preparing for FO too. It's funny how when we're in school now and we can't wait to graduate,pretty soon when we are adults, we want to go back to school again.

Anyway, this weekend services were really jam pack with people. The whole of Friday was just busy for preparation for service. It was till when there was an altar call, then it strucked me that at the end of the day, everything that we were doing was to see hands lifted up and salvations. Sometimes, when you're doing things over and over again and you forget why you're doing them.
 
I'm quite frustrated of not knowing where to go know. Maybe its a teenager kind of thing? I really don't know. On one hand, I don't want to disappoint my parents, but on the other hand i don't want to compromise. Maybe they don't know that its tiring to keep twirling around the same topic. It's really a feeling of being caught up in between, and not knowing the right person to talk to. But I'm glad there is a God to speak to, pouring out my thoughts. I'm not speaking to air neither am i crazy. I know there is a love greater above all else, above any circumstance. Though i'm in a great family and i'm not complaining that i have bad parents, but it makes it a lil tougher when their un-supporting. Well maybe tougher is good. There is always something worth running to every night, even if it's a short verse, a short conversation, a soft song on a guitar, there is a God who is there to listen. Just gotta keep running to the well and hydrate :)

Anyway, things are really moving, as the cg  keeps loving and incubating. With people moving on from incubation, to invited and being integrated. Who says its not possible?

I have been here many times before

  • Mar. 31st, 2009 at 12:12 AM

My brain is like a battlefield this few days. I wake up feeling like i have to test take in the morning. Haha so much for holidays. Anyway, the song koon yew did at YSC is really nice. It's a simple song but the lyrics are meaningful. Haha went to Ysc last weekend for service and it was my first time hearing mayanne preach. She is so engaging and the kids were just taking down notes and everything. And the children there are really funny. It's heart warming to see them lifting up their hands during worship. Kids are the most genuine and they are just simple in character, having that child like faith. They come every weekend to experience a God that touches them. So simple, so pure and inspiring. 

I am excited for easter, easter , Easter eggs! Hahah no la. More than just the event i'm excited to see even more people coming for easter :)  I'm loving bus rides when i travel. Hahah i'll prefer an hour's bus ride to a 20 mins train ride. Oh and Jessica insist that Bukit Timah is a mountain -.-  Okies i'm off to climb a mountain on thurs with crazy people.

So, this week is going to be fun, i think. Hah i'm planning to have breakfast early in the morning with my grandma. It's gonna be the first time in history. It'll be so nice to just sit down, have tau huay together and talk about the prices of veggies & eggs at the nearby market. Grandpa got home from hospital a few days ago and he's really weak. He's a funny man and can still read newpapers without specs man! Better than my mom. Well from what i know, my parents only read Classifieds. It's like their daily bread. But I can tell that he's really tired from all the medication and just imagine having to eat so much medicine a day. Makes you wanna puke.

I think D5 is gonna grow alot this season. Some may be getting busier, serving more, but when one is feeling weary, the others will be there to lift him up. Thats what a family is all about. Being there as a support, a friend to listen. I'm still not sure of where my next point will be, the same dream and vision which seems so far right now. Don't really mind what others may say, because I know that God is in control.

Argh I anticipate a cough tmr. Okies gotta wake up for dragon boat later. Please, i don't want to get sun burn.

Medium Raw Steak

  • Mar. 21st, 2009 at 2:11 AM

I've been wondering what emotion is it called, when you're neither happy or sad.
And you just can't seem to find the right song on your ipod.
So whatever song is blasting in your headphones, it determines your mood.
I kinda like music without lyrics. I can just hum my own tune.

Aha been up to BBQs for the past two days. And my hair on hand are mostly burnt off by flipping satays. Met up with old primary school friends coincidentally, hahha and they are still the same jokers. Amelia is still the same chubby irritating girl! Well we had a great time catching up with each other! So there were good food at D odds chalet and Qiyun's birthday bbq :) Maybe too much burnt food. But i think i'm sure, everyone enjoyed themselves man. John and the planning team really put in alot of effort putting the chalet to a success and made it enjoyable. I was amazed at what shipei said, when John said he wanted to really contribute something before going into army. I think most guys would be busy having fun outside and enjoying their last bit of freedom before having their heads shave. This is one extraordinary guy.

So next week is GL Camp! Hahah it's gonna be busy with all the stuff to purchase. Gotta learn the songs and man the handsign song is the killer man. Ah well, i think it'll be fun :) I'm just gonna be not my usual self and a rah rah person which is so not me. Okies, there's still much to settle with shoe and the planning team, hahah the real FOC is gonna be cool man. We're tribal people and yayy Logistics got RED for Camp shirt :) I think our cheers can be what peifen love to do. "OOLULULU"

Anyway, happy sweet 18 to Teo Qiyun! I think she's drunk.

Okies off to do some reading! Shucks my hair still smell of barbeque!

 

Big Alarm Clocks Are Cool

  • Mar. 16th, 2009 at 12:49 AM


So it's holidays now and ironically, I'm really missing school. Hahah looking forward to the electives but not exams man. Had theory exam on saturday at SMU and something embarrassing happened again. There were a lot lot lot of students taking the exam and with one look it's like a swarm. Hahah the only thing amusing is a guy next row who had a big alarm clock placed on his table. Oh yeah caught Disney on Ice with Eugenia, Amanda, Edna and dumfy! It's really troublesome to get to kallang indoor, so we just followed the kids who look like princesses. Hahah the show was good :) Oh but i would love to see patrick starfish on ice!! So there were the 7 princesses and princes from disney and snowhite seriously looks like a man. Hhaha i think it's cos of her fake still hair. The 7 dwarfs are so adorable with their bobbing heads, especially sloppy! Okies i shall listen to the free disney cd from macdonalds happy meal! Hhaha like super super long ago.

Okay i shall not blog about the annoying part of journeying home. Stupid SBS. Lucky there was dumfy to talk to.

I'm not going to do things to please people around me. There are so many people and we can't possibly know everything that happens in their life. Even when things cannot be seen by others, I believe God sees it. There is no need to prove ourselves. Whatever we think, He can take us beyond and mold us. I am searching for that next step to take and i'll need a leap of faith. It can be ugly and nasty to hear judgments but it is when going through trials that you can be made stronger. I'm still waiting for answers to decisions It's tough to make perfect decisions, but perfection can be boring sometimes.

Don't waste time comparing what you have with others, its never ending. The more you spend time entertaining those thoughts, you're feeding the monster inside of you. Most of the time we are never satisfied when we get what we want. The greediness in us is part of our nature.

There is still a joy even in the darkest times and when no one seems to understand. 

Hungry for a fighter



 

My Stomach is Growling!!

  • Mar. 5th, 2009 at 4:00 AM


We really cannot fathom God fully and there are bound to be burning questions you would like to ask quite often. How you would love to spend a day with God just walking in the park or maybe to have a meal together. I think i wouldn't ask any questions if i have a chance to sit next to Jesus on the same bus. To just quieten down and enjoy His companionship is enough. Haha it's a rather rare chance for that to happen, but who knows, maybe you might dream of a bus ride with Him :) Each time you pause, there is a cause to thank. Who says being a Christian is easy. It may not be easy, but it can be just a simple simple relationship. Giving praise even when you are in good times or bad times, not only seeking Him when you're in desperation. It's like ignoring your parents when you're having the time of your lives, but still seeking them when you've fallen deep down and broken, knowing that they will be there to support you no matter what. I'm quite curious what people think of most of the time. Hahah it'll be quite scary if i can decipher their thoughts.

This is my cry, my one desire
More of You, more of You


Keeping Me Alive

  • Feb. 27th, 2009 at 1:20 AM

Whooo exams are finally O-V-E-R. Yes i just need to type it big to proclaim it. Haha it was 2 torturous week we had to go through, whether to believe the teachers and bang on the tips or swallow the whole book. Haha i think many people's jaw dropped when they realized there isn't case studies for I/O. I told mom i'll get an average of 3 plus. Bzzz Oh well, all the fuss over papers are over! Hahah we'll trying hard not to think of SUPP paper! Shucks.

Yayyy awesome holidays! I'm gonna catch up with brp and start on 'Change of Heart'. Gotta plan well for this hols and not waste it man! I'm tired of being stagnant in this stage. Sometimes it's tiring to keep doing the mundane things in live and it's so easy to grow weary, but you just need to know what's keeping you alive. I'm quite anxious to see what God has in store for D5 and 50 this year. D50 is growing so much already haha with the 3 funny musketeers! At times I really envy their simplicity in their hearts and it's quite a challenge to be pure and simple when you're growing up. 

Got to meet up with Amanda with zhilin this week. She told us about Rjc and it's so different from what we think of the students there! They are no geeks and nerds man. Hahah then met up with the other hilarious women, shipei, peifen and kuaster. We went to take neoprints, which is so old school! And we screamed like mad cos the dumb machine moved so fast -.- Oh and i found out that neoprints are actually stickers :)

Just finished lesson with jonathan today and i totally love his lesson! Haha i didn't regret changing teacher because the previous one reminds me of my brother! Zzz oh speaking of which that fat ass is gonna study in Waseda Uni in Japan. Yayy means i can bribe him to buy nice goodies back. The last time he came back with a kimono cos it was on sale during summer. So nice right, and the kimono is filled with flowers -.- i wrapped myself up like a sushi in the end.

Okies i shall send my guitar for a lovely spa soon! Polish it up nice and clean. I'm quite disturbed with the dirts here and there. Rah oh ken's new guitar is sweeet. Hahah and it has got this pretttyy flower thing on his frets. I like to hit his guitar and see his expression (: Ahh man hope i can make it for the ubin trip next week! Alrighty my eyes are drooooping. Ciao!

Feb. 21st, 2009

  • 11:25 PM


It' has been a meaningful conversation with you
I can never explain enough nor prove it
The questions you asked i once asked myself
And sometimes it's just hard to understand you
But I do care 

 









 


Pinky and the brainnnnnnnnn!

  • Feb. 18th, 2009 at 12:34 AM

I've been preparing for exams these few days and reading through bio stuff. It just strike me that God is a God of creativity and wisdom :)From the top of our body to the bottom, so beautifully crafted out by Him, how much more can we ask for? When parts of our body are not functioning, another comes in to repair, a brain that send millions of signals a day, a body which tries to maintain a constant temperature everyday...

Haha i'm not sure if God is putting me through a test. But if this is a test, then everyday is an opportunity to pass this test and to be moulded :) I am happpy though Exams are making me mad, i told my mom today that chicken has 4 legs w/o thinking. I have no idea why but i just saw an image of a 4 legged chicken. Hahah!

No Asteroids Please!

  • Feb. 9th, 2009 at 2:21 AM

Today was the first time I heard Charleston preach! Dang i missed the first time where he preached. He shared about convenience christianity and its so true. How everything in our life are just so convenient. We want things to happen fast. Instant noodles, delivery, TV, fastfood. But sometimes we can't be too pushy with God, expecting that God will answer our prayers in just 5 mins. It doesn't take convenient faith for God to move. It's amazing to have leaders like charleston, dominic and garett around to be the strong pillars of our church even when pastors are not around :)

I was watching this documentary thing that nicholas showed me a few days ago. It's about the end day and how the last day on earth will end. Global pandemic, super volcano, killer asteroid, mega tsunami... The way they portray the end day is real scary man. Hahha then my mom woke up in the middle of the night because my dad snored too loud . Yeah. So she came out into the living room and just nua on the sofa. So i just casually asked her,

Me: "Ma, what will you do with the last few hours on earth?"

Mom: " Aiya! Take out all the abalone and eat la! Then sit there and wait to die"

Haii can she do something more meaningful other than eating abalone? Hahah but we both broke out in laughter!

That night I had a funny dream that after I came out of the toilet, a huge asteroid was flying towards the window and I immediately covered my face when it was so near. Then i saw orange sparks and woke up -.-  Man no more youtubes before sleep!

You can't paint an elephant

  • Jan. 28th, 2009 at 11:43 PM


I'm waiting for Aili and Weiting to come up to my house. Hahah such a random visitation at 12 midnight and its such a small world how both of them know each other. I still remember the times Weiting and I took the same smelly school bus to school and came home together everyday in K1. Then we'll visit each other's house to play 'Jia Jia Jiu!' We pretended that we cook stuff and dressed up and play with all the silliest stuff. Lol something you'll see in crayon shincai cartoon. Oh yeah, yimin bought me presents from Japan!  :) I played with Mugen today and it tried to attack me. Rahh

New year is kinda fun but it doesn't have much of a new year feel. It's a great time to catch up with some of my cousins and play with babies though. Jerome is so adorable! Hahha you would wanna steal him if you see him :) Haha and jing zhi taught me how to play Counter Strike. Hhhah i had a fun time shooting terrorist during new year. My brother is doing well in canada haha and i'm glad he's graduating around this April. Whoo if i'm still having holidays while he's on vacation i'll fly there to irritate him :)

I've got long list of to-do list in my brain now and i dislike going to sleep with it. Okay i gotta go revise for final exams and there is theory exam in 5 weeks time.
 
I like a kind of tiny adrenaline rush to feel a little happier. I don't know how to describe it.

Oh yeah Jam Hsiao has reallly good voice :)

Jerome!
Crayon Shincai's tidbit and a pig volleyball