Really had a shocking encounter today, I think i'll not forget what happened today ever. It's really God planned, every single thing. He just moves in an amazing and unpredictable way. Truly, in everything by prayer and supplication, God never fails.

Am determine to finish some work this week. Just realised that I haven't been listening to what Mr Wah Peow taught since school started. Actually I did, but i think ANNOVA test, repeated measures tests... are just the most terrible things. Fishing would be more fun :) Okay have been to AE weekend this week so gotta wake up the idea of flunking this subject. And I'm so glad Val's parents came this week and they have a had a diff experience in the house, already  I'm seeing that this is a place which bridges the gap between young and older people!
I wish i'll wake up tmr, with ears that has perfect pitch! Well the ear training practice really helps quite alot. I wonder why our ears work this way man. It's hard to differentiate notes that are played together. Hahaha maybe we're made to listen to one person at the same time. 

I agree with QQ's tweet about having a bed that vibrates like alarm clock. If there really is one, i'll get the one that throws me out of bed literally! My brain is immune to alarm rings really. My eyes are almost slits now, goodnight.




 

This semester has been quite messy, everything is passing so fast. It's already week 4 now for goodness sake. Oh and my brother is back home! Finally there's japanese music, crazy shouts and some noise in the middle of the night. I'm quite use to sitting alone at the back seat of my dad's car for these few years now. Now the space is taken up, it feels quite funny. But now that he's back, the feeling of doing better is even more overwhelming. People are saying show him that you can do better, but i know my limits. Life doesn't just revolves around school does it? I'm quite afraid to take big steps in life right now, even hesitant to think about it.

Counselling lesson today was quite productive :) Ms Eunice has her way of teaching about counselling skills, and putting it into practice. Well being a counsellor sure ain't easy. Listening to people's stories, probing to know more, understand like a friend. It's not a job for the faint hearted. Hahah sometimes we can't even figure our own emotions and have to stop and think what is thie weird feeling.

I was looking at the bookmark Valerie gave me when i first went to Church. Many times I look at it it seemed like a ordinary verse but this time, I felt that it spoke to me.

Psalm 9:9-10
The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed. A refuge in times of trouble. And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, Lord have not forsaken those who seek You



 

Today's celebration for Pastor Lia's birthday was more than awesome! Hahah the people who acted in the skit were so hilarious! I think the funny and crazy gene is really in our church's dna. People got to hear of stories and stories about how Pastor Lia has done in their lives. Well some people may not have talk to her personally, but nevertheless we know how much she has sown into our lives. The sermons she preach from the pulpit never fails to inspire me, well i guess to most people too. It's definitely not easy to run a youth church. Well for all i know, not many can decide to give up on a great job and choose to be a pastor and believe in youths :)

I did a drawing yesterday hahah drawing flowers. this picture caught my attention when i was looking through the web. Simple simple.



Isaiah 40:6-8
The voice said, "Cry out!"
And he said, "What shall I cry?"

"All flesh is grass,
And all it's loveliness is like the flower of the field.
The grass withers, the flower fades,
Because the breath of the LORD blows upon it;
Surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flower fades,
But the Word our God stands forever."

We have a vulnerable nature, like grass and flowers. There are situations where we can be helpless, like a flickering flame.
But there is an assurance and stability of God's promise to us, contrary to our negative thoughts. I felt this verse speaking to me when i was having a quiet time. Somehow it kinda link to what i drew in the afternoon. Haha funny how.

Anyway, brother is finally coming back in a few weeks time. Oh man i really can't wait to have a basketball match with him! I miss quarreling with him and teasing our mom together. Boo he's not staying for good, but there's still a few months to spend with him :) I shall surprise him! I love my brother and i've never said that in his face before. Hahah maybe i'll do so now :)

Alright school tomorrow, gonna be exciting! Hope to work with crazy jessica in tutorial group, it'll be funny for counselling! Can imagine her giggling away, in the midst of therapy. Lol. Off to do some cards! Been craving for tomyum soup almost everyday. I feel sick. Blooop
 

I've been wondering what emotion is it called, when you're neither happy or sad.
And you just can't seem to find the right song on your ipod.
So whatever song is blasting in your headphones, it determines your mood.
I kinda like music without lyrics. I can just hum my own tune.

Aha been up to BBQs for the past two days. And my hair on hand are mostly burnt off by flipping satays. Met up with old primary school friends coincidentally, hahha and they are still the same jokers. Amelia is still the same chubby irritating girl! Well we had a great time catching up with each other! So there were good food at D odds chalet and Qiyun's birthday bbq :) Maybe too much burnt food. But i think i'm sure, everyone enjoyed themselves man. John and the planning team really put in alot of effort putting the chalet to a success and made it enjoyable. I was amazed at what shipei said, when John said he wanted to really contribute something before going into army. I think most guys would be busy having fun outside and enjoying their last bit of freedom before having their heads shave. This is one extraordinary guy.

So next week is GL Camp! Hahah it's gonna be busy with all the stuff to purchase. Gotta learn the songs and man the handsign song is the killer man. Ah well, i think it'll be fun :) I'm just gonna be not my usual self and a rah rah person which is so not me. Okies, there's still much to settle with shoe and the planning team, hahah the real FOC is gonna be cool man. We're tribal people and yayy Logistics got RED for Camp shirt :) I think our cheers can be what peifen love to do. "OOLULULU"

Anyway, happy sweet 18 to Teo Qiyun! I think she's drunk.

Okies off to do some reading! Shucks my hair still smell of barbeque!

 

So it's holidays now and ironically, I'm really missing school. Hahah looking forward to the electives but not exams man. Had theory exam on saturday at SMU and something embarrassing happened again. There were a lot lot lot of students taking the exam and with one look it's like a swarm. Hahah the only thing amusing is a guy next row who had a big alarm clock placed on his table. Oh yeah caught Disney on Ice with Eugenia, Amanda, Edna and dumfy! It's really troublesome to get to kallang indoor, so we just followed the kids who look like princesses. Hahah the show was good :) Oh but i would love to see patrick starfish on ice!! So there were the 7 princesses and princes from disney and snowhite seriously looks like a man. Hhaha i think it's cos of her fake still hair. The 7 dwarfs are so adorable with their bobbing heads, especially sloppy! Okies i shall listen to the free disney cd from macdonalds happy meal! Hhaha like super super long ago.

Okay i shall not blog about the annoying part of journeying home. Stupid SBS. Lucky there was dumfy to talk to.

I'm not going to do things to please people around me. There are so many people and we can't possibly know everything that happens in their life. Even when things cannot be seen by others, I believe God sees it. There is no need to prove ourselves. Whatever we think, He can take us beyond and mold us. I am searching for that next step to take and i'll need a leap of faith. It can be ugly and nasty to hear judgments but it is when going through trials that you can be made stronger. I'm still waiting for answers to decisions It's tough to make perfect decisions, but perfection can be boring sometimes.

Don't waste time comparing what you have with others, its never ending. The more you spend time entertaining those thoughts, you're feeding the monster inside of you. Most of the time we are never satisfied when we get what we want. The greediness in us is part of our nature.

There is still a joy even in the darkest times and when no one seems to understand. 

Hungry for a fighter



 

It' has been a meaningful conversation with you
I can never explain enough nor prove it
The questions you asked i once asked myself
And sometimes it's just hard to understand you
But I do care 

 

I've been preparing for exams these few days and reading through bio stuff. It just strike me that God is a God of creativity and wisdom :)From the top of our body to the bottom, so beautifully crafted out by Him, how much more can we ask for? When parts of our body are not functioning, another comes in to repair, a brain that send millions of signals a day, a body which tries to maintain a constant temperature everyday...

Haha i'm not sure if God is putting me through a test. But if this is a test, then everyday is an opportunity to pass this test and to be moulded :) I am happpy though Exams are making me mad, i told my mom today that chicken has 4 legs w/o thinking. I have no idea why but i just saw an image of a 4 legged chicken. Hahah!

Today was the first time I heard Charleston preach! Dang i missed the first time where he preached. He shared about convenience christianity and its so true. How everything in our life are just so convenient. We want things to happen fast. Instant noodles, delivery, TV, fastfood. But sometimes we can't be too pushy with God, expecting that God will answer our prayers in just 5 mins. It doesn't take convenient faith for God to move. It's amazing to have leaders like charleston, dominic and garett around to be the strong pillars of our church even when pastors are not around :)

I was watching this documentary thing that nicholas showed me a few days ago. It's about the end day and how the last day on earth will end. Global pandemic, super volcano, killer asteroid, mega tsunami... The way they portray the end day is real scary man. Hahha then my mom woke up in the middle of the night because my dad snored too loud . Yeah. So she came out into the living room and just nua on the sofa. So i just casually asked her,

Me: "Ma, what will you do with the last few hours on earth?"

Mom: " Aiya! Take out all the abalone and eat la! Then sit there and wait to die"

Haii can she do something more meaningful other than eating abalone? Hahah but we both broke out in laughter!

That night I had a funny dream that after I came out of the toilet, a huge asteroid was flying towards the window and I immediately covered my face when it was so near. Then i saw orange sparks and woke up -.-  Man no more youtubes before sleep!